Fosse/Verdon Recap, “Where Am I Going?” (Episode 5)

For eight weeks, FX is airing Fosse/Verdona restricted sequence about iconic choreographer/director Bob Fosse and legendary dancer Gwen Verdon, his spouse and inventive companion. In addition to being catnip for theater followers, their story raises ideas and questions on love, artwork, sacrifice, exploitation, abuse, and different matters which might be each well timed and timeless. This sequence explores each the aesthetic points of the present and its dealing with of these matters.

What is an artist to do with overwhelming ache?

In Dorothy L. Sayers’s novel Gaudy Evening, Lord Peter Wimsey needs Harriet Vane to “write it out and get rid of it.” It’s good recommendation—up to a degree. An act of creation, particularly one into which you’ll be able to pour your feelings and your experiences, can certainly be cathartic. And but, generally even catharsis isn’t sufficient. Generally ache goes far too deep to eliminate that method.

In the long run, it’s arduous to not really feel somewhat compassion for this messed-up bunch.We get a touch of this reality on this week’s episode of Fosse/Verdon, as Bob Fosse and his household and buddies strive to determine his subsequent step. Some three months after we left Bob within the psychiatric ward, we see Bob, Gwen, their respective vital others, their daughter, their good friend Paddy Chayefsky, and the just lately widowed Neil Simon converging on a Southampton seaside home for a get-together.

It seems that Bob lasted all of six days within the hospital, and has stopped taking the lithium the docs prescribed. Regardless of their recommendation that he wants a 12 months of relaxation, he’s determined that work is the perfect treatment for what ails him. And he’s acquired his subsequent challenge all lined up: a biopic of comic Lenny Bruce, starring Dustin Hoffman, which Bob plans to direct in Miami.

The 2 major ladies in Bob’s life are usually not completely satisfied about this. Ann Reinking, now Bob’s regular girlfriend, is worried that heading out of state to direct a film will probably be arduous on his well being. Gwen Verdon has different considerations. She and Bob have been struggling for a decade to get the rights to do a musical model of Chicago. Now that they lastly have them, Gwen is dismayed to search out that Bob would fairly give attention to Lenny. That is her large likelihood, her one final shot at an enormous Fosse-directed Broadway musical—however Fosse simply doesn’t appear to care about such issues anymore. He’s bent on proving himself to “everybody”—that mysterious, ubiquitous “everybody” who he nonetheless thinks don’t take him significantly sufficient—as a significant director.

Add in a stressed younger Nicole Fosse with a burgeoning curiosity in smoking, a cloud of grief within the air over Joan Simon’s dying, and a relentless rainstorm, and the stage is ready for one very gloomy and awkward home occasion.

The total episode is ready throughout the confines of the home, encouraging long-simmering tensions to boil over. Bob and Gwen needle one another over the youth of one another’s love pursuits, and bicker over which of their most popular tasks has a extra vital message (Lenny is a few man who fought the system; Chicago is about what occurs when nobody can battle anymore and all the things is changed into leisure). Every accuses the opposite of placing on a present; every tries each trick within the e book to get his or her personal method; every tries to enlist others on his or her aspect of the argument.

In a climactic dialog, when Bob calls for to know why Chicago can’t simply wait a few years, each of them lastly lay their playing cards on the desk:

“I’m not sure you won’t be dead in two years.”

“You’re not sure you’ll be able to dance it in two years.”

“No, that’s right, I’m not. But I can dance it now.”

Poor Ann, in the meantime, has been a lone voice within the wilderness, insisting that Bob should take heed to his docs and take a 12 months off. However everybody she talks to—Paddy, Gwen, Bob himself—tells her that “Bob Fosse doesn’t take time off.” Ann considers herself fairly mature and clear-eyed, and in some methods she is: She is aware of all about Bob’s womanizing methods; she’s sort and loving towards Nicole, even when somewhat too permissive. However finally, Ann is in over her head. As she hovers on the sting of the group, making an attempt to play hostess and keep out of the crossfire on the similar time, you possibly can’t assist wishing she may simply go discover herself some good uncomplicated man her personal age.

While Gwen and Ann are hashing out what Bob needs to be doing, the lads are engaged in that edifying previous pastime of swapping tales about how they misplaced their virginity. When it’s Bob’s flip, one thing shifts within the environment. Egged on by Paddy and Neil, Bob laconically recounts how, when he was a 13-year-old boy working as a dancer in burlesque homes, a few older strippers “took turns” performing his sexual initiation.

It’s a darkish second, and it’s to the present’s credit score that it is darkish. Even this present day, practically 50 years after this scene is ready, many individuals nonetheless don’t know find out how to discuss in regards to the molestation of boys by grownup ladies. It’s fodder for jokes and even expressions of envy, as we see from Bob’s buddies. However right here, the uncomfortable expression on the face of Gwen’s boyfriend, and the disquieting flashbacks we see as Bob is speaking, and even his slumped posture in his chair as he remembers all of it, clue us in that laughter isn’t the appropriate response. And I don’t assume it’s by chance that, proper after this scene, we hear a tearful Gwen accuse Bob of being unable to inform the reality or to maintain a loving relationship.

It’s not excusing his hurtful, hedonistic conduct to watch that one thing is damaged inside Bob Fosse. It’s not a shock that he “loses himself in his work”—that, ultimately, he decides to do each Lenny and Chicago on the similar time. Solely Ann is shocked on the finish of the episode when Gwen lastly makes it clear to her that her job is “to keep him alive,” as he prepares for one of the vital grueling years of his life. (Critically, Ann, please get out of Dodge.)

In the long run, it’s arduous to not really feel somewhat compassion for this messed-up bunch. These had been a number of the most proficient folks in America, maybe in the entire world, at the moment. They created artistic endeavors that resonated and endured. And as self-centered as they could possibly be, there was extra to them than that: At backside, they cared deeply about one another’s well-being and about their youngsters’s future. However they couldn’t heal themselves or one another. Their artwork reworked the tradition they lived in, but it surely couldn’t remodel their souls.